and after so long that i told myself and sweared so much that i will forget you and lead a fulfilled new life, i failed in doing so.

sucha failure ya?

it doesn't matter anymore, how long i waited...

cos it seems to be uncountable now .

im simply retard, idiot whatever my friends ard me always scold me for .

yes i am, certainly.

im disgusted by how i am waiting for you, disgusted by how worried i am for you when you are not even caring about it yourself.

i got paranoid easily by stuffs about you.

i can go gaga for mentioning of your name.

i gave up on chances that bring happiness because of you.

and yet after all this whining about how im suffering within for so long, i refuse to give up.

yes, im a no brainer.

it flow for so many years that i thought i can't find another reason to cry for you anymore, and yet im here doing it.

but im glad because i know, you are worth of everything that i've done.

i seriously hope you are well, do take care.