Date : Thursday, July 30, 2009
Time : 8:08 PM
Title : im contented for now, even without you..

was depressed in the afternoon...
thought of you suddenly ...
was not very concentrating in class...
i don't know why, even till now, thinking of you still makes me heartache.
there's just some pain going around my heart, which will led to losing of control of my tears.
i almost cried but i held it back.
because i know that, if i let myself cry this time, the next time i will continue to let myself do that again and again.
i should end this, but i don't know how.
at that moment of time, i felt empty and lost.

but till now, i realised that actually i have everything.
i have greats friends who will always be there and loving family.
i should be contented, even without you.
though something will be missing.
but yea, i should already be.
so, let's just slowly put you down and continue to walk by myself.

追悼愛情的最敏感處, 莫過於我不得不失去一種最貼近戀人的言語, 也就是我愛你. [羅蘭巴特]

To try to write love is to confront the muck of language: that region of hysteria where language is both too much and too little, excessive and impoverished - {Roland Barthes}